Not all games are worth playing, not unless you have to.
If you could choose certainty over uncertainty, would you?
Would you still choose certainty if it required courage and perhaps a little discomfort (which is totally normal when something is new).
If the answer is no then that means that your fear overrides the bit of you that wants to be at peace. That you’ll accept long-term discomfort because it’s comfortable and familiar over short term momentary discomfort that will lead to peace.
It might be hard to admit to you yourself and even harder to say out loud but what if it’s true.
What if you’re subconsciously (or consciously now that you’re aware) holding yourself back because you’ve become comfortable with discomfort.
I’ve always said that there’s comfort in familiarity, it’s a better the devil you know kind of situation.
So, if you find yourself in the waiting game and it’s uncomfortable, don’t keep playing.
Do something different, it might feel scary but it might be worth it.