The answer might surprise you, or not.
By ‘it’ I mean this blog, the words, my writing.
I used to think that it was for you, that I was doing this because I had some great message to share with you and that it would hopefully inspire you in some way (or something along those lines).
But then I started reflecting on what I was writing about and how I was feeling each time I let the words pour out.
That’s when I realised that it was for me. I write for myself. Sure I want you to read it and I’m happy when you do but my musings of fear, challenges and the dreamlife are things I write because of the life I have lived.
I find it helpful to write a couple hundred words on overcoming a difficult situation because it serves as a reminder that not only is it possible, but that I’ve actually done it.
And when I think about all the pieces I’ve written it’s a reminder of the journey that I’m on and all the ‘gemms’ I’ve learnt along the way.
Some days the ‘gemm’ might be something I noticed whilst I was on the train and other days it’ll be an epiphany that changes the way I live my life.
And perhaps a few years ago I wouldn’t have had the confidence to share these random short pieces but I’m glad that I decided to start doing it.
If you’re an avid reader of this site you may notice that I actually haven’t posted every single day.
You may also notice that the day after I don’t post, I post twice.
I could just backdate a post to the previous day and pretend that I didn’t forget but I did forget and I’m okay with that.
Granted I don’t want to make a habit of it but I think it’s important to not get too frustrated.
Beating myself up about it won’t make me any less frustrated either.
And so instead I try figure out why I forgot and do my best to avoid it happening again.
Turns out the reason I forget is because I get the dates mixed up when I schedule posts in advance. An easy way to fix that is to set a reminder on my phone, problem solved.
The words I shared in January weren’t perfect. In fact they’re on the opposite end of the scale and I winced last week reading through them.
My writing style was not where I thought it was. It’s wasn’t witty, clear, concise and well written like I had hoped.
It was scattered with errors and I’d forgotten to take words out so some things didn’t quite make sense.
However, I was doing something new and getting the hang of writing something I felt comfortable sharing everyday.
But the beauty of doing this daily blogging thing is, each day I have the chance to write something better.
And then bit by bit (or even drip by drip – a reference to something Seth Godin has said many times) I’ll improve. Maybe practice won’t ever make perfect (what would the perfect blog post look like anyway?) but it will (almost) always make me better.
I’ve been thinking about trying something new.
The idea of a podcast appeals to me for various reasons, one of which is that it’ll help me to use my voice more and give me a space to speak about things I don’t usually talk about.
And it reminds me about why I started blogging in the first place. Writing about things that matter to me and being able to express myself through written words is important to me but being able to do that using my voice is even better.
I don’t know what kind of podcast I’d create or if it’s something I’d want to do alone or with guests.
Right now it’s just an idea but maybe one day I’ll bring it to life.
This blog is more than just a blog.
It’s a daily blog.
It’s a writing practice.
It’s a come as you are space where I feel free to write as I please.
It’s a habit.
It’s a commitment.
It’s a hobby.
I’ve been blogging for years and but I never considered how I would feel about having a daily blog where the sole focus was on words. Turns out I love it, I could happily stop writing my lifestyle blog that’s how much I enjoy this blog.
It’s so much more than what it is. After over 7 years of writing online I’ve finally given myself permission to share my words in my own way.
I like a mixture of serious and silly. I can write about feeling afraid, the inner monologue and the importance of exploring yourself. But I can also write about creating a dream life and make up analogies based on cars.
And then there’s references to Seth Godin, someone who has had a major influence on me alongside pieces that are about moments I’ve experienced.
It’s hard to summarise what this is but it’s definitely more than just a blog.
When I started this blog 6 months ago I never really considered what I wanted it to be. I just knew that I wrote a lot and thought it would be nice to have somewhere to share it.
The months have flown by and knowing that I’m committed to finding a ‘gemm’ each day is something I look forward to.
Some days I think I’ve written a master piece and other days I think I’m clicking publish on some of my worst work. At times that can be a difficult thing to navigate but I find solace in knowing that I can share something new tomorrow.
I don’t pay much attention to views, followers, likes or comments in terms of keeping track and trying to make them go up because I know that it’ll take the fun out of things and I like that this place is so free.
It’s my ‘come as you are’ space. And each day I think about life and write what comes to me. It’s helped me to think differently because I don’t want to write posts complaining about how the cancelled meeting messed up my whole day or how a relationship has fallen apart.
Instead I try and focus on the lessons I’ve learnt and the growth points in the challenges I face.
Cheers to 6 months and cheers to 6 more!
A question worth asking before you click publish in order to avoid that dreaded feeling of sharing something you’re not happy with.
Not everyone will get something from what you share each day but that’s not the point. The point is to share something you’re happy with.
If it sparks a thought or shifts a perspective etc then great but if not there’ll be something new tomorrow.
And the day after that.