Imagine bearing the weight of all that is difficult and challenging in your life on your shoulders all at once. Then, imagine having to go out into the world with that load and pretend that everything is fine.
After a while the load becomes too much to bear and you reach a point where you need to step back, to withdraw and retreat.
That is the most loving thing that you can do for yourself.
When you don’t feel okay and you don’t feel well (as in your overall wellbeing is in poor condition), you need to take care of yourself.
Being in situations where you can’t fully honour and accept where you’re at only makes things worse.
When you’re burdened by challenges you need to replenish and care for yourself rather than constantly be in situations that require you to put on an act and pretend you’re okay.
That can be a a difficult lesson to learn when you struggle with being vulnerable or want to be seen as someone who always has it together.
It might seem that right now there is little that you can do but revert to your old ways. If you’ve learnt self observation then perhaps you’re used to your patterns of behaviour.
Perhaps you can clearly map out and identify your old ways. And if you can do that then you can also choose a different action. If you’d normally say yes, say no. If you’d normally offer patience maybe try being a little less considerate.
I think too often we fall into this rigid idea of self as though there is something wrong with consciously experimenting with who we are. For example, you could be someone who always listens to people vent despite the fact that it leaves you feeling drained because you think it makes you a good friend.
Instead you could try something different such as saying, ‘I know you’re going through this frustrating situation but I don’t have the space to listen to you vent at the moment.‘
And it always feels weird the first time simply because it’s new, not as an indication of it being the wrong thing to do.
Then, overtime you might find that you prefer your new way of doing things and you can put your old ways aside.
Seeing the bright side of every situation has it’s perks.
It’s not about pretending that nothing bothers you or acting as though every experience is positive.
It’s more about adopting the kind of mindset that makes you resilient to the challenges of life.
So perhaps in moments of sadness, you can remind yourself that it’s okay to be sad and you will get through it.
And a challenging situation can serve as an experience for you to practice everything you’ve learnt.
The alternative is to wallow and complain which is okay for short while but pretty unhelpful in the long run.
People, like plants need room to grow.
I think in the same way that plants outgrow their pots, we as people outgrow our environments.
The issue arises when we end up staying in spaces where we don’t have room to be ourselves. You end up stifled and limited. Often, you end up thinking that you need to change, be less of yourself and more of what other people want you to be.
But, no matter what you do, it still doesn’t quite work. It’s easy to underestimate how much of an impact your environment can have on you, especially when the focus tends to be on the inner self.
A change of environment can feel like cheating because sometimes we tell ourselves we need to ‘stick it out’ but maybe a change is exactly what you need.
Just becuase someone is offering something , doesnt mean you need to take it.
It can happen one of two ways
The first is someone extends an offering, you say no thank and continue to decline even if they keep pushing.
The second option is you accept the offering because you don’t want the other person to feel rejected.
If you have an issue with people pleasing, chances are you’re very familiar with the second option and struggle with doing the first. As much as it can be hard to turn something down that was offered with good intentions you have to learn to be clear and stand firm in your choices even if it doesn’t feel easy in the moment.
For those that consider themselves to be awkward and those that are self conscious of how they appear to others, being yourself can be difficult.
However, it turns out that the only way to overcome it is to embrace yourself with open arms.
Awkwardness is always amplified when you focus on it.
On the flipside, if you just focus on being yourself and provide a soft and gentle space where you let go of this idea of everything being perfect, it makes things easier.
It could be stumbling over your words when you approach someone new, your idea being shutdown in a meeting, being rejected, falling over in public or someone not getting your humour.
Nobody wants those things to happen but they’re not as bad as we make them out to be.
We can get so caught up in how we feel about ourselves and wanting to be seen a certain way that we assume things matter so much more than they do.
Your new idea might get shut down and whilst you’re now letting your inner monologue play out and tell you to never contribute again, someone else is thinking it was great idea or wishes that they’d had the confidence to contribute or even just come up with an idea.
This post is titled embracing awkward but you’re probably better off letting go of the labels and instead just embrace being yourself.
Sometimes we find the in life we get so swept up in the exciting, fun and challenging aspects of life that we kind of forget about the basics, we end up off track.
I think this happens to everyone every now and then. It’s important to firstly understand what on track looks like for you and then secondly to know what you need to do to get back on track.
For me, being on track means things like having a set morning routine, having slow Sundays where I’m relaxed, eating regular meals and going to bed before I feel sleepy instead of just passing out around midnight.
In terms of getting back on track, I understand that it’s more based around how I’m feeling rather than what I’m doing. In terms of quick things to do when I feel off track, things like my morning mantra, meditation, EFT, tidying my space or writing a to-do list all make great starting points.
I generally find that when I start with one small thing I’m able to then move on and do other things sort of like a domino effect.
In the company of one as in you, yourself and um you, there are many valuable lessons to learn.
It could be something as simple as seeing yourself as you are instead of through how you are in interactions with other people. You could learn that despite being agreeable and generally follow the lead of others when in groupn settings, you’re totally different in your own company.
Maybe you like to plan, organise and feel confident to take charge when it comes to solo adventures but struggle for that aspect of yourself to be at the forefront with others.
It could be because you’re used to not being listened to, your self-esteem is low or you have an issue with always putting other peoples wants before your own. But you’ll never see these things unless you make time for solitude.
If you’re always with others you might end up believing that you’re this laid back person who is happy with other people always making the decisions, meanwhile the truth is you’re actually afraid to speak up and say what you want.
But the great thing is once you realise these things you can change them. It might start with taking charge with group plans instead of waiting for someone else to or making a suggestion when you’d usually stay quiet.
Halloween is the perfect time of year to be reminded to do something that scares you. It could be watching a psychological thriller that gives you heart palpitations and nightmares for a week. It could also be speaking up when you have something to say, saying no instead of yes or making an appointment with your doctor about something that’s been worrying you.
When things scare us our immediate reaction is often to run away from it because in our minds that makes sense and it’ll keep us safe. However, when you run away from something, you’re actually just avoiding it. It might not be an issue for today but it’ll be still be there tomorrow. And when you avoid something but know that you’ll have to face it eventually, you end up heightening the fear.
Suddenly, just the thought of speaking up is giving you heart palpitations and affecting how you sleep.
You have the option to face the thing that scares you and do what needs to be done. The outcome might not be perfect but what matters is that you tried. You might speak up and feel like you didn’t get your points across well. But if you keep speaking up you’ll keep improving. Then, one day it won’t even be something you have to think about, you’ll just do it.
Sometimes in life, all of a sudden you’re busy.
Things go from being normal one day to all systems go the next.
It might feel quite overwhelming because now you have so much to think about and plan. Perhaps you even find that your plans overlap. Now you have to choose what to leave early or show up late for.
You end up in a bit of a trance, just trying to get through the busy period until finally normality is restored.
Being busy can be difficult but you can also make being busy a little bit easier. Things like planning things in advance instead of in the moment, checking your calendar and being sure to write things down can all make a big difference in helping you feel less overwhelmed.