In search of purpose

Sometimes I think about what my purpose is in life, what my main driving force is.

Last year I had a big revelation about this idea of experiencing joy. I realised that there is an abundance of joy to be experienced in life, if I was open to it.

This was a major mind shift as a couple years prior I had a pretty bleak outlook on life. Last year I also began to embrace my curiosity and once again I came to the obvious realisation that it’s who I am, I like learning and knowing things.

And so I’ve taken joy and curiosity as my purposes in life rather than something more specific but I think that’s enough. Gone are the days of thinking my purpose is to help people etc because that often came from a place of feeling like I needed to do things to be liked.

Spending my life exploring joy and curiosity sounds much more fulfilling.

Wasted curiosity

Whilst browsing on Instagram a week or so ago I came across the account of someone that I haven’t seen in years. My curiosity got the better of me and I clicked to see what was on their feed. It was one of those times where I knew I didn’t need to look but I just couldn’t help myself.

Sometimes I hold onto the past and live as though the world will stand still and give me time to adjust but as The Jezabels sing ‘it goes on’. That reality is kind of beautiful whilst also making me realise how easy it can be to waste time.

I have spent so much time ruminating on things that don’t matter and it only seems like they do because I give them so much attention.

So here’s to being more present, I guess.