Coming back to you

When it’s just you yourself and you, how do you live?

How do you spend your time? And the times when you feel most like yourself, what are you doing?

For me it’s journaling, walking in green spaces, listening to my favourite music (The jezabels, Funkadelic/Parliament and The Stone Roses), creating with my hands, getting lost in a good book, writing blog posts and just writing in general.

In the midst of life, these things can be easy to forget and sometimes we go so far as to even forget ourselves. Then we end up feeling lost and unsure of what to do next.

We often feel most like ourselves when we return to childhood things. Things we did when we were young without a care in the world. You weren’t focused on competing or what other people would think, you were simply just being you.

Back to the old

At the beginning of this year I made some changes to this site.

I wanted to make it more visually appealing, I wanted to make it better.

And so I looked for inspiration, jotted down some ideas then got to work.

The end result was something very far from what I’d stuck with for the past 2 years. However, it was much closer to the look of a site I read fairly often.

I’d invested time into creating a header, logo and trawling through themes and customisation options so I stuck with it. I didn’t love the look of the site but I felt as though I’d spent too much time to go back to the old look.

After a while I grew to dislike the look of my site, I just couldn’t get used to it. Perhaps because the look I had chosen wasn’t really my idea.

And so I went back to the old look.

Sometimes going back to the way things were is exactly what you need.