Moving backwards

It was towards the end of 2018 that I realised I was starting to miss the way I used to blog in 2012.

I missed the freedom that came from putting stuff out for me but also for you if you cared enough to read it.

But once I saw what blogging could become and started to try and get more involved in the blogging world things changed much more than I could have anticipated. I wanted to be a certain way but there was not enough room for the writer to express herself freely and suddenly too much importance was put on doing things the way they were supposed to be.

Blogging throughout the past few years was cool because I learnt a lot but I began to move further from my truth and closer to a version of what seemed acceptable or right.

So I created this as a way to strip things all the way back. Simple layout, no pictures, just words.

Everything, apart from stuff

In the 7 years that I’ve been blogging, I’ve had multiple sites but never ran more than one at a time. I was always starting over every 18 months or so with this idea of how the new blog would be ‘so much better’ than it’s predecessor.

I found myself struggling with wanting to express every part of myself into my blog when in reality it’s perfectly okay for your blog to only show a small slice of who you are.

I’m learning that it’s okay to just write about a select few topics that interest me rather than trying to pour out and express every single bit of who I am. It’s okay to write about small businesses, personal style, my career journey and a bit of personal development.

I don’t also need to post poetry, life musings, feelings, book reviews, TV shows, podcasts, travel etc. It all becomes to much.

I created this blog as a writing space to pour out thoughts and ideas and for it to be my own personal writing practice that isn’t about working with brands, or sharing products or talking about stuff. In some ways this is more daunting because it’s just me showing up and sharing words each day but on the other hand 10+ years of keeping a journal has taught me how to express my thoughts and ideas consistently every single day.

A daily practice

It always surprises me how at the same time as being inconsistent and undisciplined with some things, I manage to be the opposite in other areas.

Writing, gratitude and drinking water are all daily practices that I manage to keep with a fair amount of ease. After a terrible nights sleep when I wake up feeling fatigue and my eyes are sunken, I still manage to say ‘I’m grateful for blah, blah, blah…’ at least a couple of times.

When it comes to writing, not a day goes by that I don’t write on my phone, paper or even mentally, just thinking and plan things out.

But on the flip-side there are a long list of things I’ve wanted to become daily or even just regular habits and somehow they never seem to stick.

Perhaps it’s because they require more effort, they’ll result in me having to put myself out there more or maybe I’m just not committed enough.

Whatever the case is, I’ve decided to make a conscious effort to develop new daily practices, starting with this blog.

See you tomorrow.